Xu Xiaoman was pondering these thoughts. Because she held such beliefs, after that initial wild night of passion, Xu Xiaoman not only gave her body but also her heart entirely to this boy who was five or six years her junior. She loved this somewhat silly little brother due to an inexplicable affection. Ever since their first encounter, when she deliberately bumped into him to plant a bug and ended up being knocked down by him, even getting her chest touched by this little fool, she had an inexplicable fondness for him. As for the subsequent series of events and when she learned that this little fool had a girl he liked, she was quite down for a while. She intentionally sought opportunities to get closer to this boy, even to the girl he liked, because of that peculiar affection lurking in her subconscious. After meeting Wang Xiaoyun, feeling the pure and romantic relationship between the two, Xu Xiaoman felt even more sorrowful in her heart. Until one day, a beautiful girl named Lan Yu appeared, that cunning little vixen instantly outshone both of them! Even Lin Feng, that little fool, had his soul stolen by her. Both she and Wang Xiaoyun felt a strong sense of romantic crisis. Naturally, they viewed Lan Yu as their strongest competitor!
That night, she invited Wang Xiaoyun out for drinks, and both ended up drunk. While confiding in each other, Xu Xiaoman finally realized the root of that peculiar affection. She faintly saw the shadow of another man in Lin Feng, the valiant man who had haunted her dreams and broken her heart for years! The one who had left her forever. It turned out that the affection she couldn’t sever was due to the unique quality in both Lin Feng and that man, deeply attracting her, making it impossible for her to let go.
After that drunken night, Xu Xiaoman warned herself to escape from this awkward relationship; she knew she had no right to disrupt the lives of these two lovebirds. Therefore, after that day, she buried her love for Lin Feng deep within her heart, resolved to maintain a friendly relationship with the couple as an older sister. However, as the old saying goes, life is unpredictable, and things rarely go as planned. She tried her best to avoid such an awkward role, but someone wouldn’t let her off so easily. Out of the blue, the once illustrious Yushan Lan family suddenly turned into doomsday cultists aiming to destroy Earth and humanity, with rumors of their so-called “God Creation Project” astonishing the world. Overnight, within a few miles of Yushan, all vegetation died, turning what was once a verdant tourist spot into a lifeless wasteland. That night, thousands of innocent civilians died, many families perished due to the whims of these cult fanatics. Amidst this chaos, her long-desired career goal, the famous Ninth Bureau of National Security’s Special Operations Team, directly sent someone to find her. It might have been a coincidence, or perhaps it was a carefully orchestrated plan by the higher-ups. At that time, Xu Xiaoman found herself, for some unknown reason, recuperating at a Ministry of State Security (MSS) base. With a heart full of excitement, she was summoned by the leaders. They got straight to the point, assigning her a reconnaissance mission to personally invite Lin Feng to a secret base at all costs. Three years had passed since her beloved had sacrificed himself during a secret mission, and since then, Xu Xiaoman had harbored an ambition to join the MSS, just like her beloved, so she could have the chance to go abroad and avenge him! She never expected her long-cherished wish would come true in such an unexpected way. At that time, Xu Xiaoman was unaware of why the MSS was tracking Lin Feng, and from the words of the leaders, she gathered they held Lin Feng, a naturally awakened superhuman, in high regard. She thought these senior MSS officials had finally recognized her little brother’s capabilities and were planning to recruit him back under their wing. However, as Xu Xiaoman eagerly set out on her reconnaissance task, she soon learned the full story through a series of events, understanding why they were willing to go to any lengths to bring Lin Feng in.
In this tangle of conflicting emotions and feelings, Xu Xiaoman finally met Lin Feng as he stepped out of his home. She simply couldn’t believe that Lin Feng was the true beneficiary of the Yubanshan disaster that had killed over a thousand people, or even the mastermind behind the calamity. Such an official, or rather speculative, narrative was something she couldn’t accept! What does it mean to be innocent but to possess something coveted by others, and why should anything beyond the state’s control be deemed a threat to the nation and its people? She learned firsthand what it means to turn one’s hand to make it rain or clear the clouds, and the necessity to destroy what cannot be used. Lin Feng was just a seventeen or eighteen-year-old boy; even if he had some unique abilities, could he really topple an entire nation?
She was utterly unconvinced that Lin Feng was the “god” the Lan family had painstakingly created. As Lin Feng emerged from his home, Xu Xiaoman was torn about whether to go through with such a heart-wrenching, emotion-conflicting task. Seeing Lin Feng’s vibrant and sunny demeanor, her heart ached, but she decided to personally test this kid to see if he was truly as evil and world-threatening as rumored.
The subsequent probing, or rather the collision of hearts, made Xu Xiaoman see the truth and listen to her heart. Just as she had made up her mind to part ways with her dear brother and bear this ordeal alone, she realized her efforts had merely been manipulated, part of someone else’s scheme. Thus, she erupted after enduring prolonged suppression and anger. Yet, this dead kid, this seemingly fearless idiot, actually agreed to go crazy with her, to cause a ruckus, with Lin Feng’s words, “Sis, I understand you,” utterly destroying her defenses. Many years ago, her beloved, born on the same day, month, and year, just an hour after her, had said those exact words to her as they parted. The same words from two completely different men ignited the fire in Xu Xiaoman’s heart in an instant. At that moment, her beloved and Lin Feng seemed to overlap. Years ago, her beloved’s sacrifice was also eerily similar in cause; he had been almost exiled to a certain death due to some trumped-up charges.
With new and old grievances flooding her mind, Xu Xiaoman, unable to bear the pressure, screamed about going crazy together, suicidally rushing towards the ten despicable trackers. Then, she merged with him in madness, doing what lovers do, completely losing themselves, leaving the whole world behind. However, fate loves to play its tricks. After the frenzy, as pain and pleasure intertwined, Xu Xiaoman came to her senses, shamefully realizing that her annoying little brother was not at all as clumsy and dull as she had imagined. This dead kid, this irritating brat, was actually quite skilled in that aspect, and afterwards, he immediately took on a macho attitude, declaring he would take care of her, treating her like a newlywed bride. That comical, irritating expression still makes Xu Xiaoman chuckle when she thinks of it.
