Angrily, I questioned him: “No relationship? Then why do you have her home’s key? You pretended not to know her in front of me? She concealed things for you? She wanted you to stay and accompany her? Ye Zhengchen, can’t you touch your conscience before speaking? Can’t you take some responsibility?”
He still held my hand tightly.
“I told you, I have no freedom… I can’t control anything that happens…” he said.
“You said that no matter what happens, you would believe in me.”
I shook my head vigorously. “You didn’t tell me back then that you were keeping a woman outside! Do you believe me?”
“I don’t know,” I replied, shaking my head.
Facing his disappointed gaze, I recalled many moments—eating hot pot together, accidental meetings in Lan Mountain, him picking me up from work on a rainy night, and the passionate moments in the car. Could I still believe him now? I didn’t even know whether to believe him or myself.
After hesitating, I made a decision. I slowly withdrew my hand, trying hard to remove it from his grip. My vision blurred, and my hand trembled.
“Darling?”
Finally, I unclasped the watch, stuffed it into his hand, and said my final words: “Let’s break up.”
He had said that breaking up was a right only I had, and apart from this right, I had nothing else. I left, tilted my head back, looked at the sky, and no longer let tears fall. He didn’t chase after me. We were done, completely done.
As I thought we had truly ended, my legs grew weaker, as if the strength supporting me had been drained. I quickened my pace, suddenly feeling the world spin. I couldn’t hold on anymore, and my unsteady body fell, caught by a strong pair of arms. After that, I knew nothing.
In my unconsciousness, I felt someone kissing me, with a slippery tongue persistently invading, sweet warm milk flowing across my taste buds, moistening my dry throat. My empty stomach craved that sweetness, and I drowsily swallowed, feeling very comfortable. Time and again, I wanted to open my eyes to see who that person was, to check if it was Ye Zhengchen, but my eyelids were too heavy to open. Later, I fell into a deep sleep.
