I ignored him and continued my twisted reasoning: “As long as they’re alive, no matter by what means they survive, at least they’re alive now. If the result is what I hope for, why care about the process? Moreover, look, if not for me, could they have been reborn? It’s because of people like you that they’ve become so delicate. So now I’m their benefactor. They should thank me. No matter what harsh conditions they encounter in the future, they’ll be able to hold onto their lives.
” I said this proudly, actually not knowing whether I was talking about the flowers or myself.
Having been here for so long, I could never choose my own fate or life. These years, my destiny has been arbitrarily manipulated, and I could only constantly self-hypnotize.
“What you’re saying sounds right! But twisted reasoning is still twisted reasoning!” The man laughed even more triumphantly.
Looking at his extraordinarily beautiful countenance, I was momentarily stunned. I had seen the beautiful Zhi Qiu of Qingcheng; I had seen the cold and handsome Cang Lian, and the wickedly beautiful Yin Can. But the man before me might not be the most beautiful, yet he exuded a fatal allure that made one unable to look away.
After a long while, I came back to my senses: “You think my words are twisted reasoning? As long as one believes it’s right, it’s not twisted reasoning! And I think my words are correct, I don’t think this is twisted reasoning!” Looking at his pleasing face, my mood also became cheerful, the resentment in my heart gradually dissipating.
“Feeling better now?” He looked up at me, smiling, with shallow dimples on his face.
“Not bad now,” I answered faintly, but my eyes involuntarily glanced toward the tall wall. What I longed for was the simplest thing, yet also the most difficult – my freedom. But now I could only waste away here. The poison in my own body, the matter with Yin Can, all of it I no longer wanted to care about. As long as I could fly over this wall, I’d be willing to pay any price.
“Younger master, the madam requests you come immediately!” A voice from behind broke my reverie.
