For a year, I had followed Yan’er, watching her move mechanically under Yin Can’s training, without any autonomy. I hated it. I understood that if I didn’t want to forever watch Yan’er suffer here, I must return to the reincarnation path and continue absorbing the spirits’ energy.
Eight years later, I finally saw my Yan’er again. Eight years for me was a physical and mental torment. It was more unbearable than five hundred years, with longing and worry corroding my heart every day.
When I saw Yan’er again, she was beside Cang Lian. I was heartbroken. Hadn’t she once said she would never love a man like Cang Lian, just as she would never love me in her past life? My jealousy blinded me, and I coldly didn’t even look at her. Even though I felt her continuously looking at me, I ignored her.
Until she was given to Wei Luo by Cang Lian, I never spoke a word. If I had spoken to stop it then, I think Yan’er would not have experienced what came after. But my eyes were clouded by jealousy.
At the moment Cang Lian gave her to Wei Luo, I saw Cang Lian’s moved expression and the deep affection in his eyes. I knew that despite Cang Lian’s cold treatment of Yan’er, their once deep love would not simply disappear.
Cang Lian was special to Yan’er, even though he tried hard to appear indifferent.
She was given to Wei Luo by Cang Lian, that man with an even greater ambition than Cang Lian. I knew Wei Luo’s scheming, his depth, his unwillingness, but I did not stop Yan’er from stepping into hell.
When they sent her off, I was behind them. At the moment of sending her away, I regretted my jealousy, regretted why my heart was so narrow.
Whether due to my guilt and heartache, or my private desire to prevent her from meeting Cang Lian, I sent her back to modern times. I didn’t want her to have any connection with Cang Lian.
But I had already disrupted the space-time continuum. Even if I wanted to send Yan’er back, it was now impossible. Within just a few days, Yan’er again arrived at the borders of Cang’s country because of that floating elegant jade.
