We remain silent, both understanding that once it returns to its original state, we’ll have to go back and be unable to be close again. If we could find a way, that would be best, but we’re more worried about finding no solution. We selfishly hope we could stay before the river changes.
“Su Su.”
“Hmm?”
“Let’s go to the human world. We can’t investigate anything else now, and there are no signs of change. Staying here is useless.”
I nod: “Okay.” Even if he hadn’t said this, I would have followed him.
The human world at this time is in March, with continuous light rain falling on the blue stone path. Mu Chen holds an umbrella, and I hide under it, raindrops splashing and wetting my skirt hem. I lift my skirt and laugh: “You know, the human world is so beautiful. What can a powerful immortal or ghost person compare to mortals? If I could choose, when I was cultivating, I would definitely become human, not an immortal.”
He softly chuckles: “Mortals only have a few decades of life. If we were to stay together, it would be too short.”
I ponder for a while and nod: “Indeed short.” I hold his hand tighter, saying, “So, when we’re in the human world, we’ll move every ten years, or people will think we’re monsters.” I reconsider and shake my head, “No, no, ten years is just enough to make a place feel like home before moving again. We’ll find a deep mountain forest to live in and stay as long as we want.”
I chatter about our future plans, but the more I think, the more heartbroken I become, unable to hold back tears. When my face feels wet, I think I’m crying again, but looking up, the umbrella has fallen. Mu Chen holds me tightly, whispering in my ear: “There will be such a day, Su Su.”
“I’m so afraid…” Becoming more and more cowardly, because the more I’ve gained, the deeper my feelings, the more I fear losing everything.
I sob on his body, choked up and unable to speak.
“Su Su.”
He bends down to kiss me, not caring about passersby or the increasing rain.
