Xu Wanzhi had no idea where this thought came from, carefully observing him, but Shen Kuang was increasingly embarrassed by this gaze, gradually lowering his head. Finally, he heard the faint voice from across: “First, thank you for your kindness. Moreover, since you insist, if there’s anything I need you to do, I hope you can complete it without complaint. Okay?”
Shen Kuang laughed heartily, loudly saying, “Okay!”
Xu Wanzhi smiled slightly, having never seen someone so eager to work for others yet laugh so happily.
After he was happy, glancing at the sunlight outside, his eyes slightly narrowed, and Xu Wanzhi casually asked: “Why have you come to Yu Ling? I heard that men should not be alone outside.”
Shen Kuang thought for a moment, but didn’t know how to answer.
His asking was not out of genuine curiosity, but because the two were together, and he was rare to find a topic of conversation. “Master said, it’s not good to tell others,” he paused and answered honestly. Everything was “Master said,” and no one knew what kind of sage his master was, who could teach such a person. He couldn’t help but raise his eyebrows and said: “Never mind.”
Reality is sometimes frustrating. Xu Wanzhi didn’t care about taking medicine but was inexplicably upgraded to an internal system, and his cold and flu were basically cured. Wandering in this world for over a month, his inner world was often endlessly confused, wanting to go back but unable to. Rashly ending his own life was not impossible, but from the concepts instilled in him since childhood, the first rule was to preserve oneself, and ultimately “suicide” was not an easy way out. However, what was he living for? He couldn’t figure it out. Like now, he could stare blankly at a speck of dust for half a day. Would he ultimately become another Xu Wan? He found it truly absurd. In his heart and eyes, there had always been only his parents and relatives, yet he was truly living here, such an obvious fact. In this month, he had thought more about life and death than in the previous twenty years. Because he had not been thorough, not been clear. So he dared not act rashly, unable to bring it up, unable to let it go.
