Yun Lei took a deep breath, “No, I want to speak, I want to say everything in my heart!” Her face was calm, so calm that Chu Yue felt like she was telling someone else’s story. “After being abandoned by love, I reflected, but I didn’t realize my true mistakes. So, I continued a crazy, decadent life – bars, casual encounters, one-night stands, and finally conceived a child who shouldn’t have come into this world! I was so selfish, thinking life was too lonely and a child would be good company, but I never considered how this child would face his incomplete life. How much ridicule would he endure? How much courage would he need to accept being a bastard? I never thought about these things. I’m not a qualified mother and have no right to be one! Because I can’t give my child a beautiful, complete future, heaven took him away! These days, I’ve been summarizing my path, my mistakes, my actions. I finally realized I’m such an irresponsible person! Irresponsible to love, to parents, to children, to life! I’m so selfish, always wanting what I want, never considering how my actions would affect and hurt others! My life has been such a failure, such a failure…”
This long speech and deep self-analysis profoundly shocked Chu Yue. She stared blankly, unable to speak.
Her heart was like a super typhoon had just passed, stirring up towering waves that couldn’t calm down.
After finishing, Yun Lei seemed to have shed a thousand-pound burden, taking a long, deep breath. She turned to look seriously at Chu Yue, “The only comfort is having you as a friend who has accompanied me, and my parents who ultimately forgave me, and cousin Yunzhi, who never gave up on me! Thank you. Heaven is fair – taking some things from me, but also giving me some…” She sighed softly, looking somewhat tired.
“Okay, Lei Lei,” Chu Yue couldn’t bear to hear more, “You should rest. You haven’t properly rested for so many days…” These days, she had been like a puppet, not speaking, only occasionally softly sobbing in the middle of the night. Yunzhi and Chu Yue had been heartbroken. Now, she finally spoke! Chu Yue could finally relax.
