He circled around behind me, put it on for me, the cold touch resting on my collarbone, and I felt the warmth of his lips on my face, “Happy birthday.” Excited, I turned around and hugged him tightly, warmed to the point of nearly losing consciousness. “Seems like you really like it, so you should…” His mischievous profile suddenly appeared before me, I understood his implication, stood on my toes, and kissed him, then his right cheek. “The previous two were too perfunctory, now let’s get serious.” The two of us passionately performed, not suitable for children! Sitting quietly on the beach waiting for the sunrise, the blue of dawn, lawless. I thought of a song, “Spring Fever.” No matter how dim the lighting or how gray the sky, it cannot hide the bare brilliance. Each morning has a different shade of blue, how can one expect the days to come? A moment of passionate confusion, a lifetime might not find it again. It’s hard to find it again. It was also my birthday, in a small coastal town in southern Italy, where he, in his youth, rode a bike to take me to see the sunrise at the beach, I held a handful of dandelions in one hand, and wrapped my arm around his waist with the other. The uneven stone road elicited trembling laughter under the dim streetlights, in the dark blue of dawn, dandelions scattered all over the sky… hard to find it again. “What are you thinking about?” “A song, a picture…” “And a person, right?” I looked at him in surprise, but he just smiled faintly, his furrowed brows filled with lines I couldn’t understand. His hand touched my face, “Do you know, when I think of him, this face is unique, it makes me want to crush it.” He restrained his strength, let go of my face, and watched the sun slowly rise over the horizon, leaving us at a loss. “Xiaoxia, you can love me.” “But when will you love me?” “I don’t know.” Truly didn’t know. “I’ve actually fallen to this state.” He laughed bitterly. I couldn’t say anything, at this moment, I really had no position to speak. He stood up and walked back, I followed. After returning home, we showered and slept, waking up to another daybreak. The silence between us could be ignored, as if only the sounds of the world existed.
Today, while helping Qiyufeng fetch his suit jacket, I felt something hard, and when I took it out, it was a small velvet box. Uh, in this situation, would I not look? But, I closed it halfway through opening it – it was a ring. I handed the suit to Qiyufeng, he took it. Just before closing the door, he suddenly came back and instructed me to dress up nicely tonight for him to take me out for dinner. My heart skipped a beat, almost forgot, today is the last day. Forcing myself to pack my luggage, actually, I was reluctant, more uneasy, because of that ring, my intuition told me it was meant for me. If he really wants to keep me, then with marriage? Is it possible? Him? If it were before, I would definitely leave, leave decisively. But now, I must admit I wavered, at a loss, watching the noon pass by. Can’t continue like this, I got up, changed clothes, rushed downstairs, hailed a cab, and told the driver to take me to the nearest hospital.
