Dealing with Tigers

Glancing outside the window, I saw the apartment where I had lived for over half a year, and the withered plant on the windowsill silently bidding me farewell. I moved into a hospital, cutting off contact with everyone, quietly, alone, waiting for the separation of two lives, welcoming his birth. During this time, I once again deeply felt helpless. I knew there was no one, yet I still strained to listen for any sounds around me. But there was only the sound of nurses’ and doctors’ footsteps, no familiar faces, no one I wanted to see, no one I could rely on, not a single soul. A sense of loss and helplessness overwhelmed me like never before. I couldn’t cry; since I chose to become a single mother, I must face it, try, experience, and accept it because Er Yu only has me, and I only have him. This is what it means to be mutually dependent. I had once been dependent on my sister, living carefree, thinking I was happy, but I was merely the one being protected. She sacrificed so much for me, never letting me see her cry, hiding her tears. I naively thought she was as carefree as I was, until now, when everything has shattered. But for you, I must learn, just like my sister did for me. I will bear all the burdens; you only have the duty to be happy, understand?