Chen Jing stared at the pitch-black ceiling, listening to the gradually steady breathing beside her, her heart full of melancholy. Xu Cheng’an, clearly cared about her going out late at night, yet would rather suffer in silence than cause a fuss with her. Seeing him like this was indeed heartbreaking, but Chen Jing would have preferred him to get angry with her, rather than bottling everything up and leaving her no chance to even apologize. Chen Jing felt depressed, and Xu Cheng’an, clinging tightly to her, felt even worse.
In fact, he now desperately wanted to question Shen Ran – was her brother, whom she hadn’t contacted for several years, really that important? Important enough that she would disregard everything, leave a note in the middle of the night, and just abandon him? Did she consider how he would feel seeing those words? Did she think about his panic upon waking up in the middle of the night to find her gone?
Xu Cheng’an’s heart was heavy, suppressing anger, grievance, and heartache – various negative emotions he wished he could lay bare before Shen Ran, making her understand how wronged and jealous he was of the brother who could call her away in the middle of the night with just a word.
Apart from the late hour and not explaining clearly to him, she hadn’t done anything wrong. If he thought about it, he was even to blame. If he hadn’t suddenly woken up in the middle of the night, given Shen Ran’s return time, he would never have seen that note, let alone be angry. He had just managed to get Shen Ran to accept him, and now, discovering his ugly, monstrous side after just a few days, she would surely want to break up with him. Xu Cheng’an bit his lip, forcibly holding back his distress, not letting a single tear fall: he didn’t want to gamble at all.
With his intense emotional fluctuations, Chen Jing lying right next to him wasn’t stupid – how could she not notice? She just respected him and didn’t expose it. But now – Thinking about the electronic voice that had just appeared, that 1% highlighted in red as if afraid she wouldn’t see it, Chen Jing let out a light sigh, feeling the road ahead was long and arduous…
