“But you all were too cruel. Even after all that, you still wouldn’t leave me alone. Why do you always pick on someone as insignificant as me? Does betraying me give you pleasure or a sense of achievement? When I saw you at ‘Heaven on Earth,’ all I felt was the pain of old wounds. I had already died once, how could I forgive you just because you said a few words? Oh, actually, whether I forgive or not doesn’t matter; I don’t want any connection with you. I’m not gnashing my teeth in hatred; ‘hate’ is too strong an emotion, and I don’t have the strength for it now.”
“Look, I had already calmed my heart. If I continued like this, I would have quickly forgotten you. But you kept showing up in front of me, and each time you did, my hatred for myself doubled. I couldn’t ignore you; I wasn’t as indifferent to you as I thought. That time at Aunt Li’s house, when I finally realized that the aunt who had been so close to me was the mother I had always wanted to meet, when you held me and said you loved me, it was as if the seal on my memories from our past life was cruelly ripped open. All those events etched into my life, which I had desperately tried to forget, came back to life vividly. All my previous efforts seemed in vain. At that moment, I really hated you for not letting me go.”
“Don’t tell me you love me. If you love me, how could you have done those things to me? If you love me, how could you force me to get rid of our child? I don’t want, dare not want, and am not interested in such love!”
