“I truly didn’t regret it. Even when Cheng Yu told me about your plans, I didn’t regret it at all. Using things outside of love to bind you was never what I wanted. When I told you I loved you back then, it wasn’t to soften your heart or anything; I just wanted to say what I had always wanted to say. I clearly knew that if you loved me too, there was no need for me to say it; we would naturally understand each other. But if it was all deceit, if you had no feelings for me, then no matter how much I said, it would be useless.”
“I finally had our baby, even under quite bad circumstances, I was still overjoyed, as if the hurt you caused me in between had completely vanished. I could still look forward to the life of the three of us, happily.”
“But you dealt me such a harsh blow in such a decisive manner, speaking words that were so cruel and hurtful, each one more ruthless than the last. You clearly knew my deepest pain, yet you used it to hurt me without mercy. If these words had come from anyone else, I wouldn’t have felt as if I had died. The man I loved with all my heart, you treated me like this, without a shred of affection. I really felt there was nothing to live for; wherever I looked, I saw no hope, and I was even afraid to go on living.”
“If I hadn’t promised Aunt Min that I would live well, knowing she was watching over me from heaven, I really would have ended it all. My existence itself was a joke; I might as well end it early and reunite with the only person who was good to me. There’s nothing in this world for me to hold onto.”
“I gave myself a chance; I hid my heart away, never to easily show it again. I resolutely left the Song family, left you, as if I had died once. You, Cheng Yu, Liu Yi, Xiao Ying, Tian Tian, and my dear child, I left them all in my past life. I wanted to start a new life.”
