“I don’t disturb others much. Counting carefully, I’m even afraid myself. If people really come to this world, how would I have survived?” He said, “Thank you Ah Ni for taking care of me, giving me a free place to stay; thank you Zhai Bei for helping me try the exam, giving me a chance to study; thank you Guan Ge for the first time seeing me with a kind but not laughing eye, making me feel the cuteness of a girl; thank you the unknown aunt at the cinema entrance who sent me to the police station; thank you the young police officer, the bureau, thank you for giving me my first job with 5000 yuan wealth; thank you for these 5000 yuan to complete my wish; thank you Su Zi for letting me enter university; thank you the director who let me start becoming rich; thank you the grass that saved me from that fire; I even thank the elders who taught me how to protect women.”
I had said long ago that when I felt enough, I could leave. I thought of my two brothers. I wanted to sleep with Su Zi on the same bed at night; I wanted to drink morning tea with Zhai Bei. Without Su Zi, I wouldn’t know what high-level means; without Guan Ge, I wouldn’t know what is a cave; without Zhai Bei, I wouldn’t know what is warmth; without the elders, I wouldn’t know what is trust.
Amazing Grace, have you heard this song? Its Chinese name is “Heavenly Grace”. These days I haven’t been sleeping well, so I often think about many things. I discovered that even someone like me has many things. I don’t know how to maintain that full of anger heart. What I want, I got; what I don’t want, I also got. I always feel like I want to do something for this world. Moreover, I’ve always lived in others’ eyes, constantly struggling to get recognition, wanting to be extraordinary, wanting to stand out. I should live once. Let me reflect on myself.
