“Even including the child from before, are four lives enough to repay your years of hatred and grievances?” Ji Li shook his head and knelt on the ground in front of Gu Anqi. He couldn’t utter a single word through his tears. At this moment, he finally understood that there was no way to make amends for all he had done. He had inflicted so many wounds on Gu Anqi’s heart, feeling only his own grievances and humiliations, yet he had always ignored Gu Anqi’s pain. From the very beginning, the most innocent person was Gu Anqi. Chapter 44: Seeking Survival Ji Li cried uncontrollably, knowing that no amount of apologies could make up for his wrongdoings. “You say I’m selfish, but I think you’re even more selfish. Did you make me pregnant on purpose to make me feel more guilty?” “I didn’t… I wasn’t…” Ji Li didn’t know how to explain because he was indeed as selfish as Gu Anqi described. Gu Anqi wasn’t listening to him; she continued, “So, isn’t it better to forget? Why put yourself through all this pain?” Ji Li stood up, cupping her face, and earnestly promised, “I definitely won’t let you die!” He deserved to die! Gu Anqi also had a desire to live; she had taken on missions from that organization to survive. But he had cut off all her paths. “Come abroad with me. I know a doctor with the best pharmaceutical team in the world; they can definitely save you!” Seeing Gu Anqi’s eyes as still as dead water, he knew she hadn’t fully opened her heart to him yet. So he continued to explain, “I never imagined things would turn out like this. I admit, from the moment I approached you, I was scheming. I didn’t confess to you out of true feelings; I couldn’t even distinguish which of my words to you were sincere and which were not.” Feeling Gu Anqi’s hands tremble, he gripped them tightly, continuing with determination, “Because I didn’t understand myself, I made so many mistakes. I thought I was resentful because of past grievances, but after all these experiences, I realized I was just unsure of your feelings, so I wouldn’t admit that I love you.” “I know, doing these things in the name of love might sound like an excuse, but it’s true that I’ve committed these wrongs because I loved too much.” Ji Li laughed at himself. Because he loved Gu Anqi so much, he was constantly suspicious, thinking she didn’t love him over trivial matters. To protect himself, he used revenge as a pretext, explaining all the good he did for Gu Anqi as part of his scheme, making the emotions less pure. “Gu Anqi, I really love you. If you and the child can’t survive, I’ll follow you.” Ji Li said this not to threaten or exaggerate; he genuinely meant it. Hearing this, Gu Anqi couldn’t stay calm. She angrily retorted, “Who told you to die with me? Do you have the right? You’ve messed up my life; do you think dying together can make up for it? If you feel guilty, then live and atone!” Ji Li disagreed, “If you want me to live, you must also survive. Agree to go abroad with me for treatment, okay? Even if you hate me, the child is innocent!” In the end, he still brought up the child. And that was Gu Anqi’s soft spot. Of course, she also wanted to live and for the child to come into the world healthy. But she was afraid, afraid of hoping only to face emptiness, which would truly devastate her. She had finally convinced herself not to hate Ji Li anymore. “Please,” Ji Li knew he had no more leverage to negotiate with Gu Anqi; he could only ignite her will to survive. This child, even if born from his selfishness, was the best thing he had ever done. After some thought, Gu Anqi finally nodded in agreement. Time was pressing, and the poison in Gu Anqi could claim her life at any moment. They immediately decided to travel abroad for treatment. Chapter 45: Remember I Love You Chu Youyou didn’t expect Ji Li to regain his memory so quickly. She went to the company to find him, only to be told he was avoiding her. Left with no choice, she waited for him at his doorstep. Since passports and other documents were at home, Ji Li and Gu Anqi returned home. Unexpectedly, they encountered Chu Youyou waiting at the door. With new grievances adding to old hatred, Ji Li’s dislike for Chu Youyou intensified. “Li, let me explain…” “No need for explanations!” Before she could finish, Ji Li interrupted her coldly, “I was also wrong for trusting you, but for framing Gu Anqi, I won’t let this go easily. So, if you’re smart, stay out of my sight from now on!” “Gu Anqi, Gu Anqi, Gu Anqi! Is she all you see?” Chu Youyou finally couldn’t hold back her emotions. Pointing at Gu Anqi, who sat expressionless in the car, she roared, “What’s so great about her? Always with that superior, disdainful look, do you really think she loves you? She just enjoys being pampered by you, like she does with me! She only loves the sense of superiority, I’ve seen through it; she only loves herself!” Ji Li suddenly felt blind. Why did he think this woman was kind and innocent for so long? Her face was etched with jealousy, lying and scheming since university, now using even more despicable means, nearly ruining Gu Anqi. “I’ve found evidence of your deeds. I was thinking of giving you one last chance, but now, expect a subpoena from the court!” With that, Ji Li ignored her, went inside to get his things, and left with Gu Anqi. Chu Youyou didn’t expect him to be so ruthless, having no feelings for her at all over such a long time. She had plotted and schemed, yet Ji Li never fell into her traps, not even touching her. Chu Youyou’s crimes could be light or heavy, but given her malicious actions and the harm to Gu Anqi, Ji Li was sure to ensure she faced severe charges, letting her reflect on her sins in prison. Meanwhile, after arriving in the US, they immediately started treatment upon contacting Dr. Lawrence. The team here is also researching the toxin in Gu Anqi’s body, which is a new type of toxin that has never appeared in the world before. Ji Li prays every day, hoping for a breakthrough in the research so that Gu Anqi can be saved. As days go by, Ji Li’s worry deepens. However, a month later, he suddenly became calm. When he came out with Gu Anqi this time, he was already prepared to die together with her. Their love has been through too many twists and turns; it’s not so much heart-wrenching as it is undying. In any case, he has committed his life to Gu Anqi. If they cannot end well in this life, dying together means they are sure to meet in the next. Fortunately, in the final stages, the team finally developed an antidote, saving not only Gu Anqi but also preserving their child.
Ten years later. Gu Anqi is pushing a handsome little boy on a swing. The little boy, pouting, asks, “Mom, why did you name me Ji De? Kids at school are already making fun of my name.” Gu Anqi smiles gently and says, “That’s the name your dad gave you, go ask him.” Ji De, still a bit intimidated by the seemingly cold and stern Ji Li, musters up the courage to run to the study to ask him. After listening, Ji Li picks him up onto his lap and says, “I just wanted to tell you and your mom that I will always love you both forever.”
