Now, she actually changed her opinion of him. After careful deliberation, the answer was unbearable because her parents had passed away, she suddenly lost her support and had nowhere to seek warmth and comfort. She had been lonely for many years, eagerly wanting to find another selfless dedication. Therefore, Tang Hua was accepted by her body because she wanted him to become her pillar and to regain the warmth she had lost for so long.
It must be like this; otherwise, how could she explain her absolute rejection seven years ago and her complete acceptance seven years later? In the past, she had completely regarded physical love as a path of fear, because even if it didn’t hurt, she could only lie stiffly and let him invade her body. Besides enduring, she had no other feelings. However, on that night at Sanlin Stream, she experienced a trembling passion, glimpsed the palace of desire, and under his guidance, her senses reached an almost unbearable tremor and explosion. This was a passion she never knew existed in the world.
Originally, she thought that physical intimacy among humans was unavoidable because it was necessary to create children. However, she was wrong. Obtaining children was not the primary reason for people to engage in such an act; otherwise, there would not be so many contraceptive devices in the market.
She felt ashamed. How was she different from her parents? In the past, her parents used Tang Hua to entrust her care, and now she was using and accepting him due to extreme loneliness. She was twenty-seven years old and had not left her parents’ ivory tower to seek another solid tower to nest in and live her own life comfortably. She did not have that idea, yet she was doing exactly that, which made her despise herself to the point of wanting to die.
She could not continue to use him. He had spent seven years for her. Would discovering his goodness now allow her to attempt to bind him with his kindness? No! She could not be so despicable. Moreover, as Feifan said, she should decide her own destiny, whether good or bad, and bear the consequences herself. If she falls, she can simply get up again. If an infant learning to walk always relies on others’ support, they will never learn to walk independently.
